Gameover

I CAN'T seem to get this song out of my head. I've missed listening to Ozma, its good to hit shuffle on the Ipod sometimes I guess :)

Anyways, I just bought my first guitar yesterday :) I'm quite excited to start playing and learning songs. I couldn't seem to put the guitar down yesterday, I just kept messing around with the strings and learning chords. I actually learned how to play the beginning part of "Domino Effect" by Ozma =) I'm suuuuuper proud of myself. I can't wait to start playing more advanced songs and ultimately my goal song, "Button for Punishment". I know I shouldn't get ahead of myself but I'm feeling a bit confident. My fingers feel raw like crazy but I'm sure it'll be worth it later on :)

I had lunch with whats his face today. I don't know why I like to torture myself with hate by still talking to him. After all that I've been through with him, I still give him the time of day. WHAT is wrong with me?! I've always been the type of person that says "damn, how come he/she can't just quit that ass/bitch?" But now I understand. I know I'll NEVER be in a relationship with him again after all that drama/hurt feelings/tears that he put me through. I know one day, ONE DAY i'll get over it and move on, until then, I'll ALWAYS be that girl that resents love, engagements, and couples.

Okay, messing around with the guitar and then time for bed =)
<3 Sherizee

No one in particular

I just got home after a hard day at work. I have a damn migraine starting at the sides of my head, i HATE those.

Today confirmed my thoughts of "DAMN, i've gained so much since college and my breakup". I was walking to my meeting, minding my damn business in the hot ass sun. As I was carrying the laptop, projector, agendas, coffee and a bag of cookies, I saw a bunch of old co-workers walking towards me. I gave a polite "hi ladies" and a quick smile as I struggled with my bags. One of them stops me and says the most DREADED words you could EVER say to a woman when she isn't pregnant.


"Oh, When are you expecting??"

O_o seriously bitch?

I gave her that stank eye look and said "NO, im not". She had that "oh shit" look on her face as she walked backwards towards the other girls that left her behind.

Usually stuff like that doesn't get to me, i'll just brush it off and laugh. For some reason, that REALLY got to me. Lately i've been hating myself for letting my body just GO. I use to love the way I felt and looked and never gave a thought to hating how my body looked. I feel like I want to just crawl under a rock and NEVER come out. After the whole breakup with whats his dumb face, I've been feeling so useless. I know I should NEVER let any person in this world make me feel feel that way, but I do. He's made me feel ugly, useless, fat and worst of all, that no one will EVER fall in love with me. I feel like such a failure in everything that I do now. DAMN.

Anyways, so I leave work at 3 on the dot. SCREW THAT, I won't stay at work for even 1 more minute than i have to. As I'm driving home, I could start to feel my eyes water and that heavy feeling that you're about to cry your eyes out. I could NOT wait to just get home and crawl into bed and be left alone. Boy was I WRONG.

I get home to find out my mom let herself into the house.

FUCK MY LIFE.

Dang you dodgers

So I watched the Dodgers beat the Rockies tonight on Primetime. I was about to crap my pants when Kuo and MacDougal were walking batters.

Work was pretty funny today, granted we had 2 clots, its weird, the day seemed so loooong. I totally forgot I have a Nephrology meeting to do tomorrow. I better get to bed so I can cruise in early to the office. HA! We'll see.

Another Day, Another Dollar

Sunday at 11:39pm has rolled around AGAIN. I hate this time of day/week. Friday needs to come soon.